Confessions of a Caregiver

Jerry and I are believers.

We believe in a loving, compassionate God who heals, who grants His kids miracles. Jesus said many times in the Bible, “Your faith has made you whole,” or, “Your faith has healed you.”

We are believing God for a miracle for Jerry.

This is the biggest faith walk either of us has had to take. But, the way we look at it is: God is building our faith. Each difficult time has required that we trust God to get us through, and to make it right.

We have seen God do for us what we could not do for ourselves. He has worked to get us out of financial scrapes that appeared hopeless.

We believe that God has something for us to do together as a couple, and that something in our future will require tremendous faith. So, as we gain victory after victory, each time we get stronger, and can believe for greater things.

I have hesitated to post anything about this for a long time, because we cannot afford negativity. But, because I haven’t been as active on this blog, lately, as I was in the past, I thought I owed it to you to tell you what was going on.

We are not blind to the malady. We know the medical viewpoint, and we do not deny the physical evidence.

We dispute the authority of this physical manifestation, and declare that God’s supernatural power is exceedingly greater than the physical.

We are very well aware of the situation, and what it could lead to in terms of natural progression.

BUT GOD is stronger, more powerful, and greater than all things created.  At the name of Jesus, every knee will bow! (Philippians 2:10) The name of cancer MUST bow its knee to the name of Jesus! The Creator has all authority in the affairs of the created; the “manufacturer” is best suited to “repair” the “manufactured.”

Besides that, Jesus has given US authority over the power of the enemy. (Luke 10:19) Jesus said, “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father.” He said, “Whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. (Matthew 18:18) Cancer! I’m giving you your eviction papers! Jesus said I can speak to you. I use the mighty name of Jesus — the name that is higher than any other name — I rebuke you, cancer! I curse the root of you and command you to wither and die and produce no more fruit! You WILL die, cancer! You WILL stop dead in your tracks, in the powerful name of Jesus! You WILL NOT spread — I forbid you to spread, in the name of Jesus! You will retreat! You, cancer, WILL flee!! Cancer, I BIND you, in Jesus’ name, and I loose the healing power of the Holy Spirit to invade — to occupy and conquer —  Jerry’s body, kicking out the cancer, in Jesus’ name!! …to flow through every cell of his brain and body bringing true miracle-working healing! No longer will that intruder called cancer be allowed to stay! Get OUT! in Jesus’ name!!! 
As of February 2020, after chemo treatments since last summer, the leukemia in Jerry’s body has been in remission. Praise God! Also, at that time, he received radiation therapy – 19 treatments – on the melanoma on the side of his head, just above and behind his right ear. We were told that melanomas are very difficult to kill, medically. The radiation reduced the large size of the tumor down almost flat to his head, and the circumference was made much smaller.
Recently, Jerry spent 3 1/2 weeks at the VA hospital in Lake Nona, the VA medical center in central Florida. He went in for a high fever. They got rid of the infection. They also found a small fracture in his hip. That seems to have also healed. Praise God. He went through a few-day confusion period.  I’m still not clear as to the cause.  I was told it could have been related to meds, or, it could have been “hospital delirium.” This, I was told, is fairly common among older people who are in the hospital for an extended period. All I know is that he was fine on a Wednesday, but that next Thursday morning he couldn’t put words together much. Some sentences were ok, but, then, he would repeat several words and couldn’t make intelligible conversation. This got worse through the day on Thursday. (I was not allowed to visit because of Covid.) Friday, they moved him to a room directly across from the nurses’ station and posted a sitter to stay with him because he was flailing and trying to get up, and was out of his head. Thing is: Nobody told me!!! I was anxious all day at work on Friday. Not only could I not get him with his room phone, his cell phone battery had died. That night I found the number to speak to the nurses. Saturday morning was the same. I felt frantic. I had to go to a pet job. On the way home, I prayed harder than I ever had, crying, and going into praying in tongues. (NO JUDGEMENT, please!)I read about hospital delirium. It is not dementia. It comes suddenly within hours and can take MONTHS to go, if ever. All I know is: After pouring my heart out to God, Jerry GOT BETTER! — almost immediately! Within 24 hours he was Jerry again.
While in the hospital, they gave him a CT to check for a stroke: It was negative. They also gave him an MRI. The results of the MRI were that they found tiny spots on his brain where the melanoma has spread. He is home, now, with periodic care from VITAS hospice.

We are NOT accepting this prognosis!

We are CONFIDENT that God is in the process of healing Jerry. We DO NOT need realists to tell us horror stories about others’ experiences! We need people of prayer and faith to join us in this fight for Jerry’s health.
Daily, Jerry recovered most of his strength in his body; he became quite ambulatory again, after becoming very weak from the hospital stay. He was having difficulty sleeping at night. The melanoma was giving him dull pain with jabs of sharp pain, periodically. Now, with the meds, he sleeps at night but also periods during the day. They are working on changing one of his meds to a weaker one to eliminate the bad side effects.

He WANTS to beat this thing!

DO NOT pray for him to die peacefully!!!We both believe Jerry still has something to do for God’s kingdom before he goes home to heaven. God has revealed and confirmed to me several times that Jerry is being healed ON THE EARTH. God has given me things that I could not have dreamed up on my own…it’s God speaking! For one thing, He reminded me of the Book of Esther in the Bible. This is about how a very bad doom-and-gloom situation was totally and completely turned around to become a blessing and a victory, through divine intervention. It was a God-thing!
Please join with us in speaking health to Jerry’s body, in Jesus’ name. In Jesus’ name, we cancel the plans of the enemy and declare that the healing Jesus provided for Jerry is his! In the powerful name of Jesus, that melanoma has no place in Jerry’s body. Jesus said we can rebuke sickness, we can curse the root of it, we can speak to the mountain to be removed! Jesus spoke to the fig tree, saying, ‘Let no fruit grow on you ever again.’ Immediately the fig tree withered away.” He cursed it and it withered away! (Matthew 21:19) Jesus went on to say,“Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ it will be done. And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”
(Matthew 21:21, 22 and also Mark 11:23) Cancer, in the name of Jesus, I curse you and command you to withdraw, to fall back. Cancer, you are defeated, in Jesus’ name! Cancer, in Jesus’ name, I command you to shrink and shrivel, and be removed! Jesus said, “Again, I say to you that if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by My Father in heaven.” (Matthew 18:19)  As we agree in prayer, it will be done! PRAY BELIEVING! We have to talk and act like we’ve already got the miracle! God told me, “Now is the time for MIRACLES!”BY JESUS’ STRIPES JERRY WAS HEALED!!!!!!!!!!! When Jesus took the flogging, He took on Himself our sicknesses and paid for our healing.

P.S., just this morning, I said, God help us.

And the Spirit of God immediately spoke to my spirit, saying, “The miracle is in your mouth!” …meaning, as we speak God’s Word, speaking to and against the cancer, the cancer will flee!

No weapon formed against Jerry will prosper, in Jesus’ name!!

(Isaiah 54:17)

Thank you for praying with us and for us.